Happy new year...

Happy new year 2010 to all my blog readers...^^

is a new year already ya...

Books?

哈哈...别看我不会读书的样子哦...我读不少书的哦...
刚看完了橘子第二十三部作品<越爱越寂寞>...发现到自己看书的速度越来越慢了...
以前会很有劲地看了六七个小时一次看完...
怎么现在像个老人...慢慢看了呢?

还有六本没有看完啊...要加油咯...

爱,要说,否则只会遗憾了错过...
痛,别认,否则越爱越寂寞...

有人对我说过...
你很好...可是你的好很烂...是所谓的烂好人...
你只会聆听对方的心思...却从不说出自己的想法...
让人完全不知道你在想什么...

坚强...
让人保护了自己...不说出内心最脆弱的一面...
却好希望有人能体谅...关心...
但却永远不说出自己想要的是什么...

我的心...很空虚...

Bond...

佛說前世五百次回眸，才換來今生擦肩而過。
我相信，我們前世一定回眸超過五百次。
所以我不要跟你道別、也不要跟你約定。
將來某天，我們一定會再見面的。

取自蔡智恒小说《回眸》...

其实人与人之间总会有着各自的牵绊...
照片里是我的外甥和外甥女...
两人见面就如火星撞地球...
但是当两人一同出游时...
哥哥总会懂事的说：来我牵着你慢慢下楼梯...

相识自是有缘...
无论是曲终人散...或是相守相依...
都请好好珍惜吧...

Sorry to myself?

A holiday that waste many times on stupid things...
i suppose to have many things need to be done but gone...
my questionnaire...working...gathering...
waste money on non-practical things...
my life seems like very lost...y until this stage i will feel very lost?
just because i contact too many things in a short period and cause my mind become so unstable?

i should planning...i should work for it...i should stay away from those distract...

Settle...?

前几天去了云顶...
玩了两天...还不错...放松心情...
希望那两位山长水远跑过来的有玩的尽兴啦...
对不起啊...
那天干了你们...哈哈...
真的听到我头都晕了咯...两边的观点都不同...讲的东西都不一样...
讲来讲去不懂讲什么...实在是乱...
不过希望你们两方面都知道该怎么做了啊...

放假了...心在休息吗?
无所事事代表着在休息吗？
哈哈...老天没那么容易放过我啊...
电话还是一直响啊...更惨的是家里电话都在响...
害我中老妈骂...

可怜啊...

Holiday...

After so long time...finally reach the day that i can post at my home... holiday is coming... somebody do ask me did u will home sick? actually i dunno...haha...my parents choose the way that let me go to try any bitter and sour of life...so...being so frequently not at home and working outside and adapt to new environment... home really doesn't mean home for me... for me home just like a place that can let me sleep and live... look so pathetic ya?haha...dun say i am bad boy that dun want home lo...no...no...no...i love my home but i not think home is way for me to rely... after coming back...i feel relax...truly relax without the help of alcohol neither cigarette... maybe i know i can not need face to some problem that trouble me...something that suppressing me...
I am home...

When she still small...

My Family...

they just 2 month different o...but their height is far more different...that's why parent is very important...haha...1 parent is 160+160...another 1 is 170+190...

Whole family except my elder sister and family...

My second niece...^^

My first niece...^^

My Nephew...

Lend a helping hand...

i think everyone ever help people rite?
i dunno y tis time i feel so regret when i help people...because i dunno myself is help or harm to that person...
sorry to say that all the things i say is from my own perspective...
i help because u r helpless...u say nobody u can find...
i was so hesitate when i want to help because i scare when i help u...u wont learn anything and rely on me...
at the end...i was so tired...i have to busy on my own and think bout urs...
i never say i dun want help u...but...u asking bout over limit...the thing u ask is very detailed...
not just a broad scope that i can easily answer u without further thinking...u noe?
thats all rite...in the end the thing that u work is...i cant describe about it...
i explain n explain...over n over again...i feel like going do it finish rather den answer ur question...
my mind is very very vexed u now?ur question reali need think very detailed n very familiar with the question...but the problem is i ain't do the same thing with u...
when u are rush when u r helpless...u looking at me just like i born to be must help u...
y?i din have the standard to tell u also...i not confirm all the opinion i give is correct...
when the thing u ask from me got problem u will find me again...
just like a never ending story...
i reali very very very phobia on the situation like that...
Please find someone else that reali can give u a confirmation answer...
I NOT THAT PERSON...

Relax...

finally all the assignment had submitted...
thx all that help me...
especially the shorty...haha...he left no choice tats y follow me...i oso follow him...
thx shorty...haha...
now just can relax a bit but need to study more liao...

there was a sad thing happen...
my japanese assessment 4...is very very bad...
feel very sad...feel very regret...feel very sorry to myself...
tot of take this course to get A...
but at the end...last few assessment's carry marks is quite good...but...
only can blame myself skip too much class...die...last chapter oso dun have but go to the assessment...at the end...lecturer ask me but i can't even answer...
haiz...
nvm...tell myself hardworking bit...
do well in final maybe still can get B+ la...haha...
add oil...

her hair is her grandmother comb de lo...haha...my mum same crazy like me...wahahaha....

Speechless...

Finally got a relaxing day for me to post my...
just finish a week with tons of work...lots of activities...
happy...joy...stressed...depressed...sad...angry...all come across my minded...
make me almost want go to insane people hospital...haha...

haiz...say bout bad thing 1st ba...
final year project...rush rush rush...only can admit that what i had pass up not a satisfies work...
here i got something that i want to say to somebody...
ur fyp is ur fyp...not mine ok?i din take double degree in marketing...
i noe u have a "bad" supervisor...so?
i noe u dunno how to do...so?
i hate when u say u dunno...tat means u need a people who know to settle the problem?
ok...fine...i mention again n again oredi...i only can provide an opinion to u only...
i not a Master student nor a Phd standard ba....i scare when u wrong den u blame me...
when got further problem den u find me...i also busy with my own work...
ya...i noe as fren i should help u...but i hope u noe the limit of "help"...
i m sorry that my words is rude...
but...tats wat i feel...
i not despise ppl copy n paste...b'coz myself also always copy n paste...
but pls...pls la...copy n paste with brain ba...dun copy something that urself cant understand...
i feel very sad y u become like tis...izit b'coz of me?
primary data n secondary data dunno how to differentiate?
qualitative n quantitative dunno how to differentiate?
u pass the subject together with me...but u seems like u never study the subject b4...
sorry to say that...i feel like a 1st year student is doing the FYP...
p/s: i specially mention in here again...if this happen in next semester...i can ensure that i will kill ppl lo...
p/s: pls dun keep sent repeated msg to me...u noe the feel of ur phone inbox is full with same n repeated msg...n tis make me cant open some important msg...pls dun so stupid la...n dun force me change my phone number without inform u lo...

now tok bout some happy thing ba...
finally pass up the FYP...less burden...but more await me at future...haha...
me become 22 years old lo...nothing different...still silly as usual...
sad is still sad...haha...
trouble is still more trouble...wahahahaha...

To all my Uni fren who read tis blog...
final is coming soon...study as much as possible ya...
n pls supervise me too ya...
n hopefully got Chivas all the study weeks...wakakaka...

20 and 10...

ya...20 and 10 is my birthday date...
thanks a lots to my frens tat post wishes on my facebook...n by phone too...
thanks u guys very much...

in here...wish myself will dream come true...haha...
another milestone for myself...
add oil..for myself...haha...

Third party...

我很快乐
请不要再说爱我
别再触碰我心里还未伤愈的角落
习惯一个人的我
并不是缺你不可
如果你是爱我的
就别让自己再犯错

我很快乐
请不要再说爱我
我已经把失去的当成了一种收获
悲伤的剧情太多
曾经都侵袭着我
所以我不再做
这第三者的第三者

This is a song lyrics...dun misunderstanding me lo...i scare of writing things liao lo...everytime sure got ppl misunderstanding...hahaha...

Sorry...

对不起..
不能让你的心安定下来...
只想让你知道我真的尽力...
我的不认真让你怀疑我的心态...
只是我真的很不想用很严肃的去告诉你这些事情...
我的坚强快沦陷了...
我的理智快失去了...

好累...对不起...
请支持我...

Happy birthday...

Thanks for you all tat celebrating the birthday at Kim Bay Restaurant...haha...
old one years old...nothing difference from physical i think...mentally hope become more mature...
Thanks for u guys...haha...
Happy birthday to Pui Yeng and Gerald also who are librarian like me also...
hope u all will be happy forever n lasting...
sorry i haven't get some photo on my hand maybe i upload next time lo...hehe...

Flower in the GreenHouse...

温室的小花?
你是温室里的小花吗?

妈妈常说像你这样以后怎样去照顾女孩子?哈哈...
常常我在想是我太差吗? 还是我还没吃过苦呢?
放眼望去...身边好像有着更多温室里的小花...
他们怎么在往后的日子生活呢?
继续在别人的庇荫下生活吗?

有些好想逃离温室却被约束的太紧...
有些却以为自己是很坚强...却一碰壁了就一倒不起...
你曾以自己的努力换来相对的回报吗?
你曾身心疲累只为了一餐温饱吗?
你曾放下自己的尊严只为了继续生存吗?

你吃过苦了吗?

Update...

Well...finally today pass up the International Marketing assignment...
normally din expect to much on this assignment...
coz oredi failed the mid-term assessment...wahahaha...
sorry to my group members that I din help u all too much...thanks for the shorty tat do final edit...

Din grab some good time on hari raya holidays...but still very happy in the holidays...
now reali need to prepare for the PTA n Strategic Management assignment lo...
Jia You...

Complicated feel in my heart...haha...

All my fellow frens...gambateh la...haiz...Japanese suddenly become so cham lo...due to laziness and always skip class lo...

Date=Dead?!

Now another weeks just past...
seems like i doing nothing for tis week...thanks to the spoiled mood...wahahaha...
so how...tons of things wait for me to settle down...
i think all of the readers feel the same like me eh?

Now i trying to finalize wat i have to be done:

Final Year Project...1st Chapter...a little bit more correction...
2nd Chapter...eh...wat lai de huh?
3rd Chapter...wait for me to goreng it...

Strategic Management...Mid-Term Assesment...hmm....got tis kind of thing meh?die...

International Marketing...my mother course...lagi no mood...haha...strongly bias on her...

Japanese...huhu...luckily...nothing big happen on it...but cant forget the everyday revision by using "video teaching method"....

Web design...eh...zero marks for my translation assignment...die x 2...

Well...after u read tis blog i think u noe how lazy i m...

Start working...gambateh...^^ for all of us...

Thanks for viewing...

He again...

haha...ya...is he again...thanks for lau for giving him a new cage...haha...a cover of a paper box....i think he like it...b'coz he keep bite the box...-.-"
I very frustated when i look him so relax..coz i so busy...wahahaha...
He try to challenge me...he say "apa tengok-tengok?"...
Sit at there like a fool...wahahaha...

Somebody say he become smaller....haha...i think he share the same fate with me lah...never become fat de lar...^^

Bad words...

sorry for all the readers that read this post...this post is just want to my !@#$%^&*()_+ feeling...u may ignore it...

wat the hell to me huh? 1st time in my life that i teach ppl thing at the end i kena scold?
i noe u r sick...u feel unwell...den u blame u cant finish assignment b'coz i din help u earlier?
wakao...i also havent done my own works den i need to go understand ur assignment some more? u think i owe u kah? in ur past generation i killed ur whole family kah? now i need repay like tis?

i help u check...den u ask me to help u to edit it? den wat for u do the assignment? where is ur effort? even u want copy n paste u also check it sum more bah? ask u go ask ppl, in the end ask me back? walao...i not same assignment with u ler... u say i very pandai...but i not the god tat noe everything ba? i also learn from book, refer book bah? ask u refer book u say me dun want teach u?

i teach u den who teach me ler? huh? u sleep in class? den u say u forgot? den inside ur brain u store wat? pls la...u ask ppl help u have limit ba...u pray for god u also not expect he will fulfil all ur dream bah? u say i selfish...!@#$%^&*()_+ if i reali damn selfish den i will ignore u at 1st time liao lo...

i not saying that i done all the rite thing but please la...noe ppl limit la...u din sleep well...den i sleep well? u cant sleep b'coz u din done ur assignment but i cant sleep b'coz ur assignment...wat the heck is going on ler? if u after read tis post u feel wat i say is wrong den u post comment lo...say where i say is wrong lo...

~!@#$%^&*((()_+ damn spoiled my mood...

Tiffany...

To Guys and Gals...

你的体贴 要比项链 更亮
你的幽默 要比手镯 更光
仿佛带我走进 Tiffany
让岁月在流金
屏住呼吸 闭上眼睛
等一件最贵重的首饰
你叫我更美丽
就算钻石永远买不起
只要懂得送我一首诗 和小玩意
我不需要 Tiffany
你叫我好神气
就算皇冠永远戴不起
只要觉得送我一辈子 珠光宝气
向全世界炫耀我的感情

谁说永恒 要靠指环 证明
你的女生 要用时间 珍惜
彷佛带我走过半世纪
从白纸到黄金
镶着诗意 刻着故事
打一件最贵重的首饰

终于一次 点石可成金
你吻过的脖子
有一串闪烁的日子
怪不得我相信 爱从来不用装饰

Hamster...

Thanks for this hamster for accompany me a lots when I dun have my laptop...haha...
Actually thought that after I get back my laptop I will abandon him liao lo...
Luckily I didn't so cruel lah...Almost 1 and half months already...he still will bite me...maybe I not enough gentle? Or I not enough fierce? I think I need a rotan to teach him liao...
Indeed he bring a lots of happiness to me...when I sad, when I down, when I boring...
All of the unhappy will go away when he start running the wheel...
Thanks...little thing...^^

Confess...

我很少相信神...或许神给我的奇迹太少了吧?哈哈...
可是我却想向神忏悔...
因为我真的错了...
到了今天我才发现打人原来自己也会痛的...
不是我在夸奖自己从小到大我真的没有打过架...
没想到第一次打了人却是我最不应该打的人...
后悔是没用的...弥补是没用的...
因为做了就是做了...
讨厌自己遗传了不好的...

你累了...我也好累...
我也好想平静的生活...你也很想的...对吧？
我错了...你也有错吧...
我认了我的错...可是我真的不觉得谁欠谁的比较多...
难道在爱情里也有做错了就需要补偿的道理吗?
或许我们的想法真的有差异吧?

我不想逼你可是我也不想逼我自己...
我不知道怎么做...只希望我能做我自己...

Love Principle...

如果你不爱一个人,

请放手.

好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你,

请放开自己,

好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,

有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .

但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,

有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,

但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.

女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,

我选择谎言;

如果谎言一种伤害,

我选择沉默;

如果沉默是一种伤害,

我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，

你怕不怕付出 ,

如果迷乱是苦，

你会不会选择结束,

如果追求是苦，

你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,

如果分离是苦，

你要向谁倾诉,

好多事情都是后来才看清楚,

好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!

Feel sorrow?

Still trouble about sadness?
Please smile to urself when u wake up at the early morning...
When u look at the mirror...look at urself...please have a smile...
If u cant smile to urself how could u smile to others?
Nobody can understand ur sadness...nobody will understand ur feel...
You cant blame other y not show some love to u when u need it badly...
Please learn to be lonely...please learn to love urself...
Be happy...

Changes...

一个人经常会叫其他人去改变....
然而有多少人会先改变自己呢？
问题到底在谁身上呢？
为什么总觉得错的是其他人呢？
难道自己真的没有问题吗？
别人变得更好也是个错吗？是否是自己跟不上他人的步伐？
所以只希望他人能永远的配合你？
现实会如此的宽待你吗？

Just A Start...

Another semester is start...
life is continue...the earth still spinning itself...
my life is on going...but my heart is stop...
"To be or not to be..."
I have to walk finish this life route...